things I'm scared of

drowning

being hit by an oncoming truck swerving out of its lane

failing

my son dying

my dad dying

giving everything i've got and still failing

death

giving everything i've got and failing people who i love and respect

the things i do that aren't who i want to be

jesus

the way i act when i'm on the phone with my bank's automated system with speech recognition

being misunderstood

loving people too little

being loved too much

knives

the sound my back makes sometimes

how much i care about appearances

being sappy

alcoholism

writing this list

confrontation

not facing what im scared of

what are you scared of?